my throat hurts.
dapat di ko na kinain yung cupcake kanina.
i didn't want to eat it talaga, kaya lang bigay ng boss ko.
i didn't want to offend her, so i ate some. i ate the half of it for 5 hours.
and then binully ko si sherwin para kainin yun.
i don't like sweets that much. afraid ako sa diabetes.
ang dami pa whipped cream nun, i don't eat those. ewan maarte ako. but i don't like whipped cream.
ang daming fats non.
and now my throat hurts, it's itchy.
parang nung kumain ako ng meringue.
i know na ang kasunod nito.
magkakasakit nanaman ako.
i can feel the virus na.
last week i was sick with a terrible stomach ache. di ko alam kung ulcer or whatever. basta super painful stomach ache that i just want to lie on my bed, on my stomach.
and now, magkakasakit nanaman ako.
there's a virus going around at work, dami may sakit.
ubo sila ng ubo. ako naman likot ng likot kung kani kanino nakikipag kwentuhan.
and then kanina naramdaman ko na yung virus. confident pa ako na di ako mahahawa kasi kakagaling ko lang sa sakit.
kasalanan to nung cupcake na matamis.
i had a funny dream about 2 nights ago.
i was about to go on a date with ronald singson. here's who ronald singson is:http://www.buzzstation.net/2010/07/philippine-congressman-ronald-singson.html
and then we were talking on the street, katipunan corner aurora boulevard to be exact.
and then his he was getting cocaine from a table which came out of nowhere - on the middle of the street.
and then his MMDA friend came and got some cocaine from under the table too.
and then a car passes by -- i don't know who's driving but there's 4 people in the backseat. one is my guy officemate and his girlfriend.
my guy officemate looks concerned because he saw me talking to ronald singson and is making a face as if he's telling me to get out of there.
i just ignore his face and say hi to his girlfriend, kiss her on the cheek.
guy officemate was surprised we were friends.
and then after a few blurry scenes, next thing i see is that i am being questioned by the police.
they were asking if i knew anything about the drugs that ronald has.
i think there's more but i just forgot what the rest was, and then i woke up.
okay i can explain why i dreamt of ronald singson. because i made a comment in someone's blog, making fun of him and his stupidity for carrying drugs in the airport.
guy officemate sometimes hits on me.
i don't like him that way.
i know he doesn't like me too, maybe. i don't know.
he usually flirts with me and tells me stuff and sometimes i ride along his joke.
but i don't like him. and i respect his girlfriend.
naawa ako sa girlfriend nya, ang landi nya eh.
kung alam ng boyfriend nya kalandian nya, gosh.
kung may boyfriend ako titigilan ako nito.
i feel sad because of my camera.
it's been more than a week since my camera's been broken and mom brought it to the repair shop.
sana magawa na siya huhu.
the other day i saw eminem's video on love the way you lie.
and then i was listening to it on my phone on the way home.
and then i cried.
naka-relate ako sa song, super.
it's easy for some people to say they will leave as soon as their partner hits them or hurts them.
but, really, it's not.
i've had a semester's course on women's rights etc etc.
but it's different when you're actually in that relationship.
i hoped that person would change.
i can't leave because i was so in love, i was willing to accept everything that's happening.
i hold on hoping that that would be the last.
mahirap ikwento kung ano nangyari pag tinatanong ng iba.
tapos na yun.
wala ako maisip na happy thoughts.
naiisip ko lang makati lalamunan ko.
wala akong happy thoughts right now?